My heart is now flip flopping all around in my chest.

Earlier today I chatted on the phone with John from Lucent. He's the new manager for the Project Management Organization at Lucent and the man I'd be working for if I work at Lucent this summer. He told me about some new tools that they are currently implementing and they sound pretty interesting (Some ocular character recognition software that interfaces with a database, employee/skill set management database software, etc) and would be fun to work with. I'd pretty much just resigned myself to working at Lucent this summer and fall thinking that is what I want.

Just now I checked my e-mail and when I saw an e-mail from IBM, my heart leaped(leapt?) out of my chest. Now, don't get excited, it didn't say anything important. But it did say that they will let me know early next week. The fact that my heart is pounding a million miles an hour tells me that I do really want to work for IBM. Really. A lot. So much for being ready to make a decision. I really don't want the money to make a decision for me, but I have a feeling that's what is going to happen. Blah. *shrug*

Or the whole thing with my heart could just be a side effect of my medication. I should go lay down. :-P